" When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
When the curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you've made
Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't want to hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide"
Demons // Imagine Dragons
I've known this song for a while, long before it became a popular hit and i've also liked it for a while because it sounded nice. But now, i've come to love it for its deep, beautiful meaning that explains so much yet so little. I guess it explains a big part of me, and i don't know i guess i get really hyped up when i find songs that i can really, really relate to. The song acts as my voice to everyone who thought they knew me or thinks they know what kind of person i am or expects me to be somebody that my exterior portrays. It's for those who wishes to be a part of my life in the long-term run. It's for those who love me as a family, a friend, a sister or something else.
I honestly have more to say about this but it feels personal, and i am afraid to admit certain things about why i love this song so much right now. I guess if you want to know, you'd have to try to understand the song, and somehow relate it to me. Or perhaps you could relate to it too, so then we'd be on almost the same page and you'd actually understand what the heck i'm talking about.
If you don't, then it's alright. Just enjoy the song :)
Where do you bought that polka dots cardigan? I've been looking for it ;)
ReplyDeleteI bought it from Sogo :)
ReplyDeleteI remember the time I was jealous and respected you. I always wonder what kind of feelings you had at that time. I never know until now. It was not because the song that you posted but it was the experience that I am having right now. I know it's silly just commenting this, but I know you won't mind.
ReplyDeleteIt's not silly that you commented, im glad that you did and no of course i don't mind at all :)
ReplyDeleteI read your post about sri ayesha and i guess you were my junior once? im sorry i never got to know you but i think i understand what youre going thru, in some ways.
i left australia years ago after 4 amazing years, created a whole life there with my friends and stuff.
today, i can't recall any of them contacting me recently. everyone has gone off with their lives and future and i guess i was just someone who was a part of their story once in the distant past.
to be honest, it's depressingly sad to know that people who were ur best friends, your childhood dont remember or care about you anymore, or so thats what it seems.
but i guess i can't blame them. im the one who moved away, and my efforts in keeping in contact with them weren't any better than their own efforts to do the same with me.
i cant say i left a legacy at my old school there, it was primary school and everyone becomes anxious about high school and they dont rly look back at primary school anymore.
i guess what im trying to say is that it's okay if things like this happens. it sucks, but it's okay. we have our own life now too, and altho its sad that our past stayed in the past, we can still live in the present and make THAT amazing. you're still in school right? well, you could still mark your legacy there. it's always easier when youre in upper secondary rather than lower, or even in primary school.
i've learnt to appreciate my past, and everyone in it. they're all very different now, so i'm choosing to love the part of them from the past. they probably think im the one who doesn't care nor think about them, because i never really expressed it to them from the start. so i guess its no one's fault, it's just life.
okay im starting to babble and im not even sure if you'll read this haha. i hope you'll make your legacy somewhere fatihah, but even if you dont, then it's okay. leaving a legacy isn't the most important thing in the world; being a part of someone's life to make a difference, even a slight one is what really matters. you may not remember or realise it but im dead confident that you were significant in someone's life while u were at sri ayesha. if youve taught someone something they can use for the rest of their life, even if its small, then there. you've made ur mark. it may not be in the way you want or hope, but its still something and that something wouldn't have been there if you weren't the one to do it.
okay im starting to blab again so i'll stop now heheh. goodluck fatihah :)
Thank you for your advice. You're such a great person. I will always look up to you. And yeah, good luck to you too.
ReplyDeleteI was in the same class with your sister when I was in Year 6, if you want to know, but I don't know her that much.
Anyways, Thank you! I don't really mind when you babble. It's just your quality that makes well...you.