starting over

I'll be having my first lecture tomorrow. As excited as i might have been in the past about entering college, i'm actually quite terrified. I don't really know what to expect, even after having an orientation day yesterday. I knew absolutely no one and being the awkward me, it took me a while to gather up the courage to even say hi to someone and try to befriend them. I just hope i get to fit in soon. It's a little hard because everyone else is accommodating at the campus and i'm commuting back and forth to the university from my house, so i'll be missing out on certain things. I was a little(a lot actually) shocked with the difference between school and college, at how independent we need to be now and how i'll need to change certain things about myself to be able to adjust well. I never really get nervous about things until the last minute so i guess this is that final minute. I'm terrified. I feel vulnerable, lonely and insecure. I really hope life in university will be decent. Please pray i'll be able to cope, because i'm scared as hell right now. Metaphorically, of course. Bismillah.